I just took 3 sleeping pills.
I’m not trying to kill myself, just trying to sleep.
Hopefully that’ll excuse this post if it doesn’t make any sense.
Sorry it’s been a long time since I’ve updated this thing, we’ve been all over southern Africa the past couple of weeks.
But I’ll write about that in a couple of days.
Today was a weird day. I just wanted to be by myself; I’m not mad at anyone, but it’s been a while since I’ve just had time to myself.
Yesterday, I tried some time alone- went to a movie and walked around the mall- but on my way home, our already piece-of-junk car started overheating on the highway in the rain and I didn’t have any minutes left on my phone. That really put me in a bad mood for some reason.
I’m still glad that we have a car that runs, albeit a piece of junk.
Then some other stuff happened, so I thought, “I’ll just try again tomorrow.”
We had a WBS thing at our house and I also had to be across town because we’ll be starting a singing group. When I got home, I had to take some people back across town to their houses.
The church here has a fair number of middle-aged single men who admit that they are too picky when it comes to women. I don’t know that means, all I know is they can get pretty close to our AIM girls, so I make sure that I’m always there and they’re never alone.
Anyway, I was taking two of these guys home today and all of a sudden, one of them brings up how American girls are better than South African girls (I think in a romantic way?)and tried to argue his point.
I thought it was funny because when I tried to disagree, he told me that I don’t know South African women. I asked him what American women he knew, and he told me he had met a couple. So the other guy and I gave him a hard time about that being his main connection to the entire country. (We’ve had these same joking arguments before, so we both knew how hard we could push him before he’d get mad. So the other guy took him there.) It was fun.
When I got home, I had kids in my room playing games.
While I had fun in all, stuff still just really irritated me today.
I know I’ve heard Brandon say stuff about how when he has a certain way planned and it gets changed, he feels the same way.
I had my whole day planned (both days) and when they changed, I got really irritated and it put me in a bad mood all day. I kept having to choose to be happy.
I don’t really know what my main point of all the stuff in this post is, I think I just wanted to sort it out, but being flexible is really hard when you’re not willing to be.
Today, I just wasn’t wanting to be flexible. I wanted to be selfish with my time and when things changed, I wasn’t ready.
Anyway, just thought I’d let you know how I was doing.
I’ll update about the trip we went on, it was amazing.
(That wasn’t the update, by the way.)